Taste bad

People often try to improve themselves on many aspects just to move a little bit closer to the ideal perfection. However, instead of getting closer to perfection they would be getting closer to destruction due to their pride and greed. No one can be perfectly beautiful because the closer we see someone’s face, the more conceivable the facial flaws would become. Time goes by; the flaws would no longer be concealable but become more obvious. I believe that the skin of babies is just close to perfection, but when the babies grow up; their skin would not be that perfect. In the Bible, we can see that the history of human wasn’t getting closer to our father, people sinned and didn’t glorify the name of God for every man has lost the ability to do goods, but still has the liberty to do bad and good things after Adam failed in Eden. Frankly, we would be just like a group of lost sheep that are helpless and hopeless, if our shepherd Jesus Christ had not come to save us from the cursing gulf. Gratefully, I thank God that I have been saved for being the chosen one.

 I realized that not many one would be able to see the special side of mine. It does not mean that I have two different personalities, but I just have a belief that I usually keep from sharing. Last morning, I worshiped God in the church as usual; some members of Gideon’s community came to our church to share about the community and invited us to serve with them. I was talking to a sister from Bukit Mertajam Church who was one of the members; we had quite a long talk about service. She was just nothing but a stranger to me honestly, but we would be able to talk about faith and selfless services happily. That was not a superficial conversation but a heart-reaching interaction that encouraged me significantly. I felt glad because I have not been talking about faith openly with somebody. My teachers in the church don’t even know my spiritual growth and my longing heart to share. It is not saddening and I can understand because we don’t have time for chatting and I am no longer the boy that was desperate for someone else’s acknowledgement and attention.

My eldest brother is being active now in the business of Amway, and he has been motivated greatly by the successful men in Amway and also by the motivational talks. I am happy to see my brother sharing his happiness and stories in Amway with my parents. My parents do show their interest and express their happiness for that. It is great to see my brother striving to reach his success and aim while the whole family is supporting him sincerely. He has become the story teller now in my family and Amway becomes the hot topic that my family talks about. Anyway, about wishes and success, personally I have different opinions towards both of them. I found myself pitiful for being incapable of telling any biblical stories that are inspiring. I feel quite envious about the happiness that my brother felt while he was sharing, because I wonder when I would have that for my own. Maybe I would never have. However, the envy does not taste good at all.