The end of Sem5

Finally, I finished my last paper of examination yesterday. I didn't feel excited after my exam for I haven't been in very stressful condition since my days are always great with the grace of God. I thanked God that I managed to get myself quite well prepared for the examination while I spent quite a lot of time for studying theology during this semester. It was another miracle that I managed to take care both of them quite well which I never thought that I would be able to do so.

For this semester, I wanted to thank God for many things. Thank God that my almighty God has been revealed his will to me through his special revelation, The Bible. Bible said, those who seek shall find. That is never a lie, he never stops revealing his will through his words in the bible, and what is much greater than knowing God’s will in our life? We are blessed to live with purpose and in his will, for the glory of him which is the ultimate reason why the world exists, why the mankind was created.

Thank God for giving me the desire to know him throughout this semester. I believe that I wouldn’t be able to get to know him without the assists from my brother and sister in Christ. They have been very helpful and passionate all along the way and the moments we discussed about the teachings in the Bible were always great with joy, peace and seriousness. I do enjoy in the whole process of learning and the desire of sharing with others is getting stronger as the call for preaching is getting appealing as well. May God give me a humble and tender heart to share with my friends all these wonderful messages in the Bible regarding man’s ultimate necessity – salvation.     

Recently, I found that the more I get to know God, the more I found that God is too mighty that we couldn’t fully understand and comprehend his greatness completely. His word is the real wisdom that we would never be able to understand thoroughly. The more I learned about the doctrines of the Bible, the more I realized that I am an utter sinner who is doomed completely. I would choose to believe that the light of the world shines bright in my heart, and the dirtiness is revealed under the light of truth until that I couldn’t deny the filthiness in my heart.

My roommates said that I am a holy person, for I keep pacing on the path that Bible taught me to walk on. I didn’t agree with his statement as I think that I’m filthy and that is why I need his cleansing blood to get me rid of the bondage of sin. I followed Christ not because I am smart enough to believe the real and living God, Jesus Christ, but that I am helpless and useless for my corrupted nature. This kind of guilt was not something that I used to feel in me previously, for I used to be ignorant of the truths in the Bible. This feeling of being unworthy was not in me until I found that the righteous status that I’m staging now is not what I succeeded to purchase but the precious gift that my merciful God has granted me for his glory.

It is obvious that I have changed a lot. Those who know me perceive the drastic change in my mindset and worldview. It is kind of a shock to me as well, for I never expected that I would turn to be who I am right now. However, I hope that God keeps molding me continuously in his own miraculous way in order to equip me with whatever he wanted me to possess. Let everything go according to your will for you are the way, the truth and the life.