Powerless Voice

Recently, I found myself a very sensitive person who is quite good on perceiving people's emotion. I wonder since when I start to be this sensitive. I was being called as a "Big Prawn Head", but now I seems to be placed in opposite situation. I believe that one of the reasons is that I don't really know what I myself want and the reason I live. When people are not able to see the purpose of life, they would be lost and helpless, even diffident of their own selves. The purpose of life acts like the light in the darkness, shines to let you see where you are, and let you perceive others' feeling. I think I was really blur about what I want and what to do most of the time. Before you can be concerning other people, you need to be able to tackle your own emotion and thought. When we cannot handle personal problem, I don't think we will bother to help the people around us.

I made a call to my mum this afternoon, as I found that the tickets back to my hometown were sold out. I can only go back on Saturday by a midnight bus. Hence, I called her to ask her opinion. During the call, the bus problem was no longer important to me, when I heard her powerless voice once she talked. Her voice sent me a lot of messages once I heard it. I found it was really weak and vulnerable. First message was that she must have some health problem and sufferer for something. Hence, I switched my topic from telling her the bus problem to asking her condition without hesitation. It is sad to be helpless, when I can do nothing after knowing her condition. She fell down one day and got her bone to minor crack. My Goodness! How can it happen?! She told me that now she feels in pain every time she bends her waist.

Mother is the great creature of love in the world. She got injured now, but she told me that my brother got dengue and asked me to get to him and show my concern. How mighty love does she have, until she can merely care about her son's health problem and neglect her own? She seldom asked me to take care of her, but to take care of other people. That's why I trained to be caring, and hence got many friends from different stages. This is because of the time I spent for friends is really much.
However, once she asks for help, the problem would be worse. It's kind of worrisome to me, as I am really having no idea how serious her injury is. I feel really sorry for everything happened lately, feel really upset to be helpless. Hope the prayer can be heard and answered as soon as possible, Lord. May God bless them all.