Mandeta 2012/2013

MANDETA used to be one of the money-spending projects in our college. People used to find it very expensive especially when you found the dishes there fail to satisfy your appetite and fill up your stomach. People in our college tried thousand ways just to escape from paying the money for the projects. I found the foods for this time were really insufficient for me, and I was not really happy of that, as I paid RM120 for that, MAN!! Haiz..I wonder if I am able to gather our college people to wear in black and protest in order to fight back for our money. In addition, RM120 is not the only reason for the project to be expensive, the new dress we buy for the prom night can cost us a lot as well. I bought new formal shirt this time, so I am one of the victims!

However, I found this event meant a lot this time. Perhaps, it's like a signal telling me that I am at the stage of letting go of my position to juniors. The feeling of proud got extremely intensive especially when i was lining up with other JTK members before going up to get our award. It is nothing proud to be given the award, because it is something that is temporary praise and compliment. The reason for me to feel proud of myself is that I didn't feel regret of choosing this path of serving my own college and even CC members that I care for much. I thank God for teaching me how to serve without expecting any so-called worldly prize and award during this year of study. I just felt really happy of this achievement that I knew it's hard to be accomplished. Deep inside my heart, I found no sorrow, though I knew I sacrificed a lot of stuffs unnecessarily.

Hanafi turned to me and asked me whether I think he has done a very good job before he got up to take his own award from Master. I just told him:" Brother, maybe we didn't make it a very good job, but I believe that we have strove to fulfill our duty and I think you have given the best to us, so just feel proud of yourself." I said it honestly to him, as I really found that he has been so much dedicated and helpful throughout the time of being JTK. Meanwhile, I examined myself before I got to the stage, I knew that I have neglected somebody in CC and I felt very sorry of that. Just hope that they are able to forgive my helplessness and weakness for being an imperfect person.

This MANDATE, I experienced special feeling when I was taking photos with my seniors. One of the seniors whose name is Pamela is the final year senior. She came to me politely and happily, asked me to take photo with her. She said :" Chyi Chun, let's take a photo. This is the last time already." I found slight sorrow in the last sentence. I replied:" Ya! Sure!". We have never shared a common story in our lives, but just got the feeling of loss. We used to have short chat sometimes, when we met in cafeteria. She looked really beautiful that night~

 After taking photo with her, I had an idea popping out in my mind. I wanted to find another senior that I care very much, in order to take photo with him. He is our dear Teddy, Tan Kah Hern. There are quite a lot of stories between Teddy and I. He is the great senior that I have met in UM. He did a lot for CC members in our college, maybe no one knows much about his contribution, but I am aware and acknowledge every single things he has done for us and even for me. Without him, I don't think that I could be a spidey today. I would be still that unstable and playful, don't know how to behave and how to be a better leader. He didn't teach me much, but the decision he led me to make really mold me into someone that I have never expected I could be today. Thank God for letting me to meet him, though he doesn't agree with my conviction sometimes about Christianity, but I still love him very much. Never get angry of his offensive talk, just feel sad instead sometimes. But this feeling didn't last long as I know he has no intention to hurt me. He did quite a good job to take care some juniors personally while I failed to do to the level he could manage to give. Luckily that night, I took a photo with him already~ otherwise I would be regret extremely.

  Here we go, they are the reasons that I found my mandeta was very different compared to previous one. I appreciate this kind of special feeling, it will get more intensive for the next year I think. :)