The greatest commandment

Sunday once again!! What a great weather early in the morning today! I went to church to worship as usual. Thank God that my voice has been greatly recovered, I was able to praise the Lord through worship. It is always a great time for me!

Today, we had our Bible study class as usual after worship. This time, the topic is about the greatest commandment among all the commandments.  The answer can be found in the scripture, the gospel of Mark Chapter 12:28-34 which was given by Jesus Christ himself. It says,” Hear, O Israel! Our God, your Lord is one. You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.” The second is this,” you shall love your neighbors like yourself. There is no other commandment better than these two.”

I am curious of the reason why God reminded me for many times regarding the same scripture. I have heard a lot of preaching and sharing, they were all about this topic, the greatest commandment. I still don’t know the exact reason but I found that is definitely not a complete occasion without any purpose behind. However, during the class, I am being impressed by the interpretation of this scripture from the perspective of the speaker.

Why did God need to mention about Lord is one to his people? That is a very essential theology in Christianity that every follower in Christ ought to know. But he wants to emphasize that our God is only one, there is no other God besides the Lord. Since he is one, we shall not worship other God but to worship him alone! Besides that, he requires us to love him with all our heart and with all our soul and with all our soul and with all our strength. With all these details, actually he tries to give us a great message precisely about the correct attitude to love him.

We can never be able to love someone truly without the right understanding of love, so God gave us a guideline on how to love him truly and worship him faithfully. What is meant by “with all your heart”? God wants to rule absolutely in your heart. In order to love someone truly, you need to put him into your heart. If you want to love him completely, you need to fill your heart with him thoroughly. Without having God to rule your heart thoroughly, we are not able to love him wholeheartedly.

Apart from that, what is meant by “with all your soul”? Regarding the soul, I think that is about emotion. We need to feel something for a person in order to love him truly. We need to love God with emotions! Pray moodily, worship joyfully, serve cheerfully! It is about emotion! Many couples broke out, with a script “I have no feeling towards you now, sorry.” Haha!! So how can we love God without soul?

Besides that, what is meant by “with all your mind”? I would like to believe that God wants us to love him with understanding. We cannot love God truly unless we have a correct understanding of love. God doesn’t want us to love him without wisdom. God wants us to know that how great he is and how worthy he is through the word of Bible and the wonderful creations in the world. With all these awareness and knowledge, we are able to love him deeply! God doesn’t want us to believe in him blindly for he doesn’t want us to love him purposelessly.

Other than that, what is meant by “with all your strength”? I would like to believe that God wants us to love him with action and effort. The affection is not only expressed through words and praises but also with action and effort! Love can never be whole without actions; affection can never be assured without effort. It is like faith without action is dead!!

Never believe that there are many important messages in this wonderful scripture. Thank God for the wisdom and the grace of revealing this wonderful message! I think it is not easy to fulfill the commandment, but please do help me to fulfill that with your help!!

  

              

A nice sharing

It is great to gather with the Christians once again in this Friday afternoon. I thank God that Dr. Living Lee came today for sharing some precious things with us. He is also an Alumni of PKV and formal advisor of PKV today. It is really great to have him as a special speaker. The first ever thing that he said in his sharing, he said:” Christianity is not about rules and regulations. Instead of that, it is all about relationship with God.” The greatest commandment that Jesus told us in the Bible is that “’you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’”

He told us a lot of things. There were too many until I didn’t manage to remember every single thing he shared. However, there were some really impressive things he did share with us. He was talking about one of the commandments in the Bible regarding the order to keep the Sabbath day. He does keep the commandment in his daily life; he doesn’t work during the day, but spends his Sunday for relaxation or some relaxing activities. He didn’t tell us how he suffered for making his Sunday a relaxing day. Instead, he told us that he found the rest of the days very exciting. He fully uses the rest of the time for the six days for his work. He found that really a blessing commandment for us to obey. I am still wondering whether I can do as best as he manages to. But I do really want to give it a shot and see how God is going to bless me if I do so. Anyway, I got really excited by that particular sharing and motivated to obey the commandment.

Besides that, he told us to put God the priority. If we do prioritize him the first ever in our priority, he promises that he will bless us and other things he will add to us through blessing. I wonder how many people could manage to accept and believe that. Apparently, that is not really down-to-earth practice. But as far as I’m concerned, I believe that is really true. It is about stewardship that brings impacts to people unwittingly without looking for benefits and rewards deliberately.  Anyway, I am aware that I am not good enough. May God bless me by using me and helping me to be a good servant!

    

To move on once again

Once again, it is a special day. I thank God for giving me the chance to be a good listener for some of my friends. They shared with me their sorrow and struggle, I cannot fully understand but to lend my eyes for them. My life wasn’t that smooth of course, with a lot of challenges, problems and troubles as well. That’s why I am still able to sympathize with them.

No one in the world can be totally dependent, because there are a lot of things that you cannot do alone. Besides that, God created two humans in the very beginning, because he said:" It is no good for him to be alone." God created Eve as a helper of Adam. Helper for what? For allowing both of them having target to love!! Because everything can become whole only if men after the image of God are able to love each other and manifest God lovely nature to the world! What an amazing purpose of God for creating man and woman! Therefore, it is really despair to live without love.

Many people choose to suicide when they feel very pressured and stressed. The problems are magnified unnecessarily by their fear and making the problems apparently overwhelming. Why do people choose to suicide when they all know that suicide is not a practical solution? What make them giving up their precious life? It is heart-bleeding that many people don’t cherish their life. They should know that their life can leave a positive impact to the world; they can enjoy the life in God for eternity!

One of my friends is having problem in her relationship. The guy left her to another girl. But thank God that she is trying to seek for comfort in God even though she is still very sad. It is not that easy to face the fact and forgive the guy that left her, so time is needed for it to get better. But that’s what I told the girl, “The guy has made the decision to leave you, you need to make the decision is either to face it and move on, or to be influenced by him forever.” It is upset to know that he is not there for you, but good to know that he does not love you truly. It is a let-down for having a broken relationship, but it is also a blessing to stop that relationship in advance if it is not meant to be forever.

I asked the girl not to be depressed, because he is the one who missed such a wonderful girl like you. He doesn’t see the invisible thing inside you that is called “love”, he has slipped away with you unfortunately. Be confident that you are great enough and deserve somebody else to cherish you and be hopeful that God has someone who is great in store for you. Being single forever is the blessing of God for minority, if you don’t have that kind of blessing; you will meet the right one in your future.

I know it is difficult to admit the fact that you are the one who was dumb. However, it is okay to cry out aloud like a kid making people knowing that we need comfort, it is okay to express your hopelessness and sorrow at night so that no one will know, it is also okay to admit that you are such a failure in your relationship with the guy, because that was not the first time we failed. It is alright after all. Anyway, it is always beneficial to be honest to yourself instead of being ignorant. Ignorance can keep you from learning and growing even if you have uncountable experiences and lessons of life. Unless you are able to accept your own self by being honest to yourself, otherwise you will never be able to make other people accepting you.

What is wrong to show your tears? What is good to hide your tears? If you don’t cry openly, who is able to take the opportunity to dry your eyes? If you don’t share your problem, who is able to make you better by telling you some worse experience to you? Sometimes, we just need a pair of ears or some worse stories to make us feeling that we are not alone. Sometimes, we just don’t need much solution; but the words of encouragement to make us confident and inspired in order to move on once again.                  

Determined

There was a girl telling me that she had a nightmare one day. In her dream, she saw me leaving out of her life. She didn’t tell me the detail and I didn’t ask for that as well. However, she shared with me about how he felt for the dream I was very sorry to be helpless about the insecurity I gave to her that time. At that time, I was wondering if the nightmare would happen to come true at last. I do not believe that the dreams at night will come true. But what happens about us now? We are no longer keeping in touch with each other that often. Nonetheless, our lives still go on ordinarily as usual.

Little by little, I have come to realize that the dream that time wasn’t something like a prophecy. That was not a prophecy predicting the oncoming problem. Instead of that, I choose to believe that was just a phenomenon caused by her worries and the feeling of insecurity. Being worried and insecure caused her to have that kind of nightmare. I am really glad that she was trying to appreciate me, but it was just saddening for the failure of helping her to gain faith. But thank God, I think she has a great life now!

What if I have a nightmare like hers? LOL! A nightmare that seems to tell me that I’m going to fail to secure something previous to me? What am I going to do with that kind of dismaying nightmare? I am actually feeling sick of the attempt to interpret the meaning behind the dream. It is getting me despondent immediately. However, I don’t want to deny..deny that I really scare to fail to secure that. I know that in order to face the insecurity, I need to be honest to myself and admit the fear in me. I am not able to do anything to help for that, because I’m just a human with many limitations.

Sincerely pray for wisdom, courage, faith and patience, because I know that I can collapse anytime without anyone of them. Please help me to be humble, so that I won’t take anything on my shoulders unnecessarily. Please help me to be submissive, so that I won’t walk with my own will but your will. Please help me to be faithful, so that I won’t be diffident and consequently showing my ugly negativity. Amen!! 

I felt good!

That was a good day which I was too smart to spend it with my friend Kevin. I stayed at his house for a night and I had a great time with him and his siblings when playing basketball. We played for about 2 and a half hours which was long enough to exhaust me. But I did enjoy all along the way. There are something that I would like to share over here. Those were really something special.

When we were playing ball, I noticed a huge man staying silently beside the court, sitting on a familiar motorcycle and watching us playing basketball calmly. That was their honorable father. I was amazed that his father had stayed there for a long while just to watch them enjoying playing in the games. Apparently he didn't participate in the game, but he involved himself by being a silent audience along the way. I felt happy on behalf of his children, because it is good to have a father getting involved in that way. His presence somehow raised their happiness to a greater extent that they may not perceive. I can tell that their father has involved himself as much as he managed to.

Some people may not appreciate the presence of their parents in that situation for some reasons. But I do really wish that my parents could be with me and witnessed the achievement that I have been trying to achieve for the sake of their pride and glory especially at the moment I received. the honor on the stage. But sadly I think they have underestimated their companion to me. What to do~

Besides that, I realized I am able to get close with kids easily as I'm capable to communicate with them hilariously. I had a lot of fun especially when playing around with his youngest brother. I found myself being honored when I was teaching him how to perform a layup properly. It indicated that you are someone people would like to learn from. The feeling is really awesome. I like kids, because they give praise to you when they really feel like to compliment you. They are really expressive in a very frank way and pleasure-givers to the persons they admire most of the time. hahaha~ as a conclusion, I did feel good~

Not that easy though 5

This is the feeling and thought that I had once I reached my territory.

I back to my college prematurely for some funny reasons that I don't want to mention. After the passionate uncle dropped me over there, I realized that no one was going to entertain me but myself. What does it mean? Yupe, originally I'm not supposed to be in UM that early because there is no entrance for outsiders except for the freshies. I think I'm not as strange as the outsider they mentioned but the way they regard me is just opposite of mine. What to do? I'm no longer somebody in the college. If I were somebody to them, all the identities should need to add an 'ex' in front of the names anyway.

Somehow it is saddening that I need to humble myself and ask for help from juniors. I'm the one who giving countless helps last year, but that is no longer the same this year. Since I don't have a certain level of authority anymore, I may not be that helpful right now. At the same time, i'm not able to involve ourselves in certain places, anymore because our time has passed, the juniors should be given chances to learn and they are supposed to take over out place.

Kevin, my best friend who is in my situation sympathized with me greatly. We know that we are no longer consequential in our college, and helpless that we should learn how to be humble and stay low profile from now onward in order to avoid overshadowing somebody else. I thank God that i'm not the only one who felt being isolated slightly . At least I got him as my companion.

It is funny to see that juniors have their own pm names to be called by the freshies while our pm names are no longer worth to be remembered. I saw them calling che jin woody, but no one there know that I'm spidey. It is happy to see that the freshies will not trouble us to help when they are in need, but sad that we don't seem to have the power to help them anymore even if we may want to offer our helping hands to them voluntarily.

Thank God that I have been given the chance to coach them though I know I'm not relaly qualified actually. It is great to get to know them early. But whne coaching, I didn't introduce myself at all in advance, because I think taht they don't have the need to know me. what a stupendous misery it is!! I'm not here to just to sound off like a kid, but to express the deepest helplessness of mine. It is not easy to stay humble~ never mind brother, we learn together gradually!!

humble~~Three four!
Humbleeee~ Humbleeee~~
Now we need to be humble~~~~ x2

Not that easy though 4

It is really not easy for somebody to keep trying to get out of their comfort zone. I am blessed to realize that getting out of comfort zone can help someone to grow. Therefore, I decided not to stay within my comfort zone longer. For that decision, I have met many interesting friends every time I tried to reach to another unfamiliar zone. The ability for me to adapt myself into a new environment has been sharpened gradually throughout my life.

Getting into Amway meeting every Tuesday night is one of the efforts I am trying to make in order to step out of my comfort zone. They are all kinds of people over there such as businessman, salesman, office workers, professional and so on. The people are generally friendly and funny. They like to talk, just like me. Some are really attractive and humorous speakers that I would like to learn from. I am new over there, they just need to know my name, but I need to get to remember all of their names in order not to feel awkward. It takes time and some effort to do so. But generally, I enjoy being there so far.

Being active in PKV Persaudaraan Kristian Varsity is another effort that I am trying to make in order to step out of my comfort zone. Over here, we are one, because God has adopted us into this one big family. Worshipping together with the people there and interacting with the Christians are really enjoyable to me. Getting to know new faces can make me get excited but I always remind myself not to be a touch-and-go friend to them. My brain seldom stops working during the meeting. It is nice to talk about faith and God over there, because I don’t have many Christian friends actually. Besides that, it is quite a good training for me to learn speaking in English. I think I am doing well so far, but of course a lot of space for improvement. However, I try to remind myself not to be a nervous fast talker, but to be a charismatic speaker who delivers messages effectively and clearly. It takes time to learn and requires patience to learn unceasingly. I am going to be great!! May God bless me because it is not easy!!        

Not that easy though 3

Recently, I read something about sanctification. That takes a long process to sanctify someone who is adopted by God. No!! It is a whole life process actually. The theory is almost the same like the process of recovering of a patient. It takes time for the patient to get slowly recovered after an operation or a treatment until he gets fully recovered. Some say, friendship is like a book, it takes years to write it, but take a few second to burn it.

It’s second study week! But that is definitely not an ordinary one. Something happened within these few days. I heard that my juniors were being scolded by the seniors last few days ago. I was shocked when I was informed of that. I just found that reason of scolding them is quite unacceptable and insensible. Having a weak bond with your direct buddy in buddy system is not a bad thing actually. That is just not a good thing of course. However, it is personal will for someone to decide whether they want to do anything to better the bond of their buddy line. Besides that, it is both way cooperating to make it better effectively instead of one way alone.

I don’t find a good reason to rebuke them, because they are innocent after all. Meanwhile none of the juniors have offended or disrespected me before, so I don’t really have much comment on them. I understand the purpose for the seniors scolding the juniors is to remind them not to take the seniors for granted. However, we must understand that no one wanted to make the situation worse; just they don’t know how to better it. They may think that seniors have the duty to take care of the juniors, and juniors have the obligation to approach seniors automatically. If both of us don’t try to humble ourselves by putting aside the stupid pride in order to shorten the gab, consequently there are no ways we can get closer with each other.

In order to improve the relationship, honesty is very crucial. If you don’t feel like getting to know your friends, without honesty you will never be welcome even if you approach them initiatively. The honesty is required to be apparent so that people may be pleased because they know someone is interested to know them. Apart from that, effect to show your caring is also very significant. Honesty without effect is dead while effect without honesty is the work of hypocrites. With effect shown, people will realize your caring action and appreciate your kindness and gradually feel good to be with you.

Most of the course-mates refuse to open the door of their hearts to one another. However, they expect other people to open door for them. Thing will never work it that way. As what I say always being with people is like facing a mirror. If you smile, they will smile as return. If you run away from the mirror, no reflection will be found at last. Giving sincere compliments to your friends is to value your friends accordingly because we want people to acknowledge us as well. Giving attention to your friends is to make them feeling consequential, because no one is willing to be nobody.  

          

 Recently, I read something about sanctification. That takes a long process to sanctify someone who is adopted by God. No!! It is a whole life process actually. The theory is almost the same like the process of recovering of a patient. It takes time for the patient to get slowly recovered after an operation or a treatment until he gets fully recovered. Some say, friendship is like a book, it takes years to write it, but take a few second to burn it.

It’s second study week! But that is definitely not an ordinary one. Something happened within these few days. I heard that my juniors were being scolded by the seniors last few days ago. I was shocked when I was informed of that. I just found that reason of scolding them is quite unacceptable and insensible. Having a weak bond with your direct buddy in buddy system isn’t a bad thing actually. That is just not a good thing of course. However, it is personal will for someone to decide whether they want to do anything to better the bond of their buddy line. Besides that, it is both way cooperating to make it better effectively instead of one way alone.

I don’t find a good reason to rebuke them, because they are innocent after all. Meanwhile none of the juniors have offended or disrespected me before, so I don’t really have much comment on them. I understand the purpose for the seniors scolding the juniors is to remind them not to take the seniors for granted. However, we must understand that no one wanted to make the situation worse; just they don’t know how to better it. They may think that seniors have the duty to take care of the juniors, and juniors have the obligation to approach seniors automatically. If both of us don’t try to humble ourselves by putting aside the stupid pride in order to shorten the gab, consequently there are no ways we can get closer with each other.

In order to improve the relationship, honesty is very crucial. If you don’t feel like getting to know your friends, without honesty you will never be welcome even if you approach them. The honesty is required to be apparent so that people may be pleased because they know someone is interested to know them. Apart from that, effect to show your caring is also very significant. Honesty without effect is dead while effect without honesty is the work of hypocrites. With effect shown, people will realize your caring action and appreciate your kindness and gradually feel good to be with you.

Most of the course-mates refuse to open the door of their hearts to one another. However, they expect other people to open door for them. Thing will never work it that way. As what I say always being with people is like facing a mirror. If you smile, they will smile as return. If you run away from the mirror, no reflection will be found at last. Giving sincere compliments to your friends is to value your friends accordingly because we want people to acknowledge us as well. Giving attention to your friends is to make them feeling consequential, because no one is willing to be nobody.            

Not that easy though 2

I wonder how long I can be free like now until I can spend time writing out my thought over here. I just read one of the topics in The Westminster Shorter Catechism last night. That is about sanctification. Now I am reading one of the articles in The Bridge, I got something about sanctification as well.

It is interesting to know that Bible does mention about bodily training. In 1 Timothy 4:8 (for while bodily training is of some value, godliness is of value in every way, as it holds promise for the present life and also for the life to come. ) It is so common that people focus on bodily training in order to build a well-shaped body or a muscular and beautiful physique. Those things are appreciable because they are visible. I do agree with that, because the sexy long legs of Koreans are the favorite of mine. Normally they are hard-working in working out; most of the Korean girls got a pair of beautiful legs.

However, bible says that bodily training is not that valuable compared to godliness. The godliness helps us to enjoy in him for eternity and also glorify him as well. That is the chief end of men. Bodily training may grant us a healthy and strong body, but spiritually it doesn’t help us at all. But spirit is something much significant than the body. However, in order to have a godly life, there are some doctrines that we need to understand and grasp them tightly.

In order to be devout, we need to always remind ourselves that we do things for God instead of man. (Colossians 3:23 Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men) This helps us to be fearful and faithful on whatever things that we do. For instance, in a marriage, some people may find their partner unlovable. In this situation, he or she needs to love his wife or her husband for the sake of God. Does it sound too reluctant and not down-to-earth enough? Not at all. We must understand that the purpose of God for creating partner for Adam is to make them be in love. Adam was alone and that was not good in God’s sight. This is because we are after the image of God- love, we are supposed to love and we will be able to love only if we have a target to love. with the love in human beings, we are able to manifest the love of God. Therefore, for that reason, we are born to love, and we ought to love one another!!

Besides that, in order to love, we should not put our own benefits ahead of other people’s need. As Bible says, “Let no one seek his own good, but the good of his neighbor.” ( 1 Corinthians 10:24) By holding this teaching, we are able to be selfless and offering our helping hands to the people in need. In order to be a good testimony, being helpful to the people around you like how Jesus helped his neighbors during his life time as a man is very significant and essential habit we ought to equip ourselves. Some people may not have the calling to be a Christian, but we still need to do goods for them because that is what we are called to do as a servant of God.

Other than that, we need to submit our own life to the Lord who has saved us because at the time we accept him to be our personal savior; we are no longer belonging to ourselves. After that, we are supposed to seek for his guidance and hope that every single decision we are to make is able to please the Lord and to do His good pleasure. In order to live in the way God asks us to have, we need to seek for his guidance so that we are sure that we walk on the path of faith in Christ!!

      

        

Not that easy though

I found that the change in personality and attitude of an individual can be influenced by the other people. We may find that our personality has been molded in a shape which is quite similar with the close friends of us. The previous statement was found in psychology, but I don’t think that everyone isn’t exclusive in this saying.

Recently, having talks with some close friends made me to realize that the worldview of people mindset can be absolutely different. One of my friends has some characteristics in common with me, but somehow our worldview on a particular matter could be totally different. That’s why I never like superficial interaction but a heartfelt approach to their thought.

In his sharing, I can feel that he doesn’t really believe there is such thing like a true relationship in love. Being in a relationship is like being in a duty for a task and doing things with commitment while all the sweet things done by the couple can be a habit or routine, because they have been used of doing all these things. They are all observation-based information, because I believe that he never got into a relationship before. However, this is a common phenomenon that I would not be able to deny as we can see there are many friends around us who are in a relationship usually entertain their partners and do things for them with commitment.  I mean they do that just because he or she is their partner. The willingness can be there, but the enjoyment seems to be too light.

In this situation, being in a relationship without love to him is merely a habit or even burden when you cannot really commit and maintain it well. He shared about another common phenomenon, in a relationship, it is either the guy forsakes the girl, or the girl leaves the guy eventually. It indicates that the relationship in this world seems to have random development and potential betrayal. I felt really sad for his thought. It is not wrong to have all these views, because it is good to see the flaws of wrong relationship which can alert us from being hurt by other people or hurting other people. However, it is too sad to be hopeless at all, because all he said to me about relationship was like a bad or even worse thing to get involved in.

I was trying to convince him that relationship is not really as bad as he thought. I was sharing about some good testimonies I found my church, but he refused to accept. I felt in sorrow silently, not because I failed to convince him, but I could feel the despair he feels towards love. I found it unhealthy for person to be hopeless to love, and to be too positive to love. Both of these attitudes lead them either into despair or regret.

Love itself has nothing wrong, but the people were being misguided and lost all along the way in a relationship for their own egoism, with limited knowledge and understanding about love, in their own foolish way. For instance, the existence of bomb in the beginning was only for bombard the mountains for obtaining aggregates for construction’s use. But now people use in wars for their offense which could blow the people in a huge area.  In this example, we can see that the bomb itself does not do anything wrong, but the mankind abuses it for their reasons. 

Love is not the cause for a victim to get hurt in a relationship, but mankind’s sinful nature is the main factor ever! People should know the true meaning of love, before they could really know how to love. People should be selfless and considerate for other’s feeling, don’t take advantages from others in a relationship. Couples must respect one another in order to protect each other from unnecessary hurt due to disrespect. The reason for being in a relationship should be purposeful and beneficial. Without a purpose, people would be getting lost definitely.

The reasons of a person to get hurt in a relationship are the excessive trust in their partner without setting a certain baseline for self-protection and the haste and desperation for love that lead us to regret of trusting, and cause mentally and spiritually injuries due to excessive trust and poor self-protection on the aspects of mental and spirituality. The second one leads to carelessness and insufficient mutual understanding, it causes you to think that the one is not the right one, and eventually you quit the relationship anyhow. When there is a break, there must be followed by pain.

In order to protect ourselves, practical solutions are hardly carried out without certain attitudes. Before getting into a relationship, patience, humility, sincerity, activeness, enjoyment, forgiveness are very crucial natures to make things right. Patience is needed for observing an individual’s personality and worldview, meanwhile helpful for evaluation of the future compatibility with you. Forgiveness and humility are both needed to help you to humble yourself and forgive the others if they do any mistake due to carelessness and inconsideration. We should understand that no one is perfect in the world so are we. Sincerity is to create a pure and true trust with clear and good intention stated beforehand, so that people would not suspect your attempt and cause unneeded misunderstanding eventually. Most people find relationship vague and insecure because they don’t make clear in the first place for any better reasons. Activeness and enjoyment are needed to keep stirring your relationship for avoiding the stagnancy from happening. I believe that many agree that the uniformly stirred milo (active) is far tasty than stagnant milo (inactive).    

The Mask

We have watched plenty of hero movies since we were small. Now the hero movies have been brought out with a better graphical effect. The enjoyment of watching the latest movie is much better than of the past. I still remember a hero movie which is very interesting and happening. The hero in the story was not of the cool type, but in fact he was an extremely crazy troublemaker throughout the story. Everything was messed up by the hero, and that was really a special story line different from many typical hero movies. The movie is called – The Mask.

In the story, the main character is an ordinary guy who longs for love and doing big things but he is not masculine and bold at all. Instead he is very skinny and weak with a kind and pure heart. He accidentally picked up a mysterious wooden mask from a river when he was trying to rescue a man at the river. (He thought someone was drowned, but that was actually a mass of rubbish floating on the river.) Eventually, he got the mask sticking on his face, and he turned to be an insane troublemaker.

Mask is the thing that I want to talk about in this sharing. I believe that many legendary supernatural heroes that people have created mostly are masked. For instance, Spiderman, Batman, Green lantern and Ironman are masked with their own masks which are uniquely designed for them. But I found their enemies are also the same, they got a mask on their face as well. For instance, Green Globin in Spider-Man comic and joker (joker’s face) in Batman Comic do not reveal their original face at all. The reason of covering their face is quite an interesting topic to be discussed about.

In my opinion, I found that mask got a function to cover the weakness. By covering the facial expression, no one would be able to understand you and find out your weakness easily. By being apparently emotionless, it makes you looking unbeatable and invincible. For instance, the joker kept smiling in the movie, while the batman was beating him with hard punches on his face relentlessly. It feels like the joker did not fear to be killed, and the batman was about to kill him without a blink of his eyes. Definitely, they felt painful for being punched, but they never want to express the pain with their face.

Apart from that, covering your face with a mask can turn you to be someone else. I still remember in The Amazing Spiderman, the moment when a boy was being coaxed by Spiderman to escape from a burning car hanging in the air. Spiderman gave his mask to him, and made the boy to be courageous, move and escape from the danger, because the mask means something powerful to the boy for the boy knew that the guy with that red mask is strong enough to defeat many monsters and enemies. He would believe that the mask is the source of power and the spring of courage.

Nowadays, I found many people wearing masks in their daily life. It makes them being protected and accepted by other people. For instance, some may be just wearing an invisible joker mask to be an amusing entertainer in a group of people, but in fact, they do want other people to understand the real inner self of them. It is quite contradictory for wanting other to understand you truly, while being scared of revealing your real inner self by removing the mask from your face. If you want to get some superficial relationship with other people, the mask is just appropriately useful enough. But if you do want other people to understand you well, it is time to consider keeping your mask into your drawer for a period of time and revealing your real and original face to the people you would like them to understand you.                    

All the best to them~

Finally, I’m back to my University after a long semester break. Once after the memorable Taiwan trip, my helpful cousin straight away brought me back to UM. I felt thankful for the help, but sadly once again that my parents didn’t manage to send me. What to do~

Back to the place, I decided to skip all the classes because I wasn’t really good in my health condition. In order to recover as soon as possible, I rest as much as possible. It isn’t the same feeling at all. I am not busy of anything; I have my own time to do many things so far.  The new faces don’t seem to know me but it is normal after all.

I was invited to be one of the judges for the talent show. The shows were really amusing because they are brave and crazy enough to act in their characters. Some singers are really good and quite professional, that surprised me also. Some more it is good to have a beat boxer yeah!! They are really impressive, I am happy to spend time with them that night. It was a great night indeed!

After the gathering, I gathered the PMs during our supper at Murni. They are the group that I am worried of. I have heard something bad about them from other people. Trying not to be very judgmental, I would just gather them and remind them about what they are supposed to bear in mind and what principle they are supposed to grasp when serving in CC instead of talking as if I am a judge. I am not sure whether they understand what I told them, but I think that is the only thing I can do-giving advices and reminders. But I believe that they are not ignorant, just hope that they could be a good servant in CC instead of a commander. Hope they bear in mind that without the same direction, we will never be united, without the willingness, there will not be any enjoyment.    

Go with faith my friend!

Sometimes in life, God does not seem to be merciful enough by giving you a so-called better way for us to pick. He seems to be leading you to a dead end and leave you no way to go. It is despair for being in that plight. I don’t think I can just take it easy; I would be panic and hopeless. It is bad to have limited options to choose when you are in a junction in your life. But it is worse when you are in dead end with no way to go.

We may ask for the reasons why we must face this kind of tough period while we never did anything bad like murderers or thieves. Normally, we place our attention on the problems by hoping them to be better, so that we may not be suffering in torment. But meanwhile we are not able to think about what we can do to cope with that when we focus on things wrongly. When the situations do not go according to our will, we need to readjust ourselves mentally and spiritually in the way that can keep us surviving through this tough time. This tough moment is the thing that has revolutionized thousands of people.  I can boldly assure that no one could be successful unless they have gone through many severely tough moments. Successful people are not the persons who are able to escape from problems, but the warriors who are couragerous enough to face and overcome all the challenges.

There are many historical persons in the bible that had gone through thick and thin periodically. Those got the ultimate triumph after a long period of humiliation, struggle and agony. It is written in the bible that “ Not only that , but we rejoice in our sufferings knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”

Another scripture is that “And I will put this third in to the fire, and refine them as one refines silver, and test them as gold is tested. They will call upon my name and I will answer them. I will say, ‘They are my people’; and they will say, ’The Lord is my God.’” Original gold obtained from the ground isn’t pure enough but in order to purify it, burning is necessary for it to go through. No pain no gain. People say that there is no way to use an unmolded jade unless you mold it into a certain shape for a particular purpose of usage through carving and polishing. It is tough, but believe that one day you will go through it. Go with faith..my friend~

   

Back to my place

Going back UM is not something bad to me, because right over here, I am able to enjoy. For instance, I do really enjoy my Sunday worship, and attend the lesson after the worship in order to know more about Christianity. This morning, I saw several new faces. A smart-looking guy and a polite lady started to worship at our church recently. They are just several years elder than me. Somehow our conversation reminded me that I am now a Third year student who is going to graduate 2 years later. I wonder how long I am still able to appreciate this kind of life style over here. I feel sick when I think of leaving this place. It is really sad to think of leaving the place you like, leaving the people you like to get along with.

Oh ya! Today is registration date for all the freshies. They need to register themselves today. Early in the morning, I woke up and waited for a phone call at the resting site at ground floor. Many young guys with their parents holding stuffs moved up the stairs and searched for their own rooms. Some parents looked really happy and proud, as if they are proud of bringing their sons to this University. Some looked confused because they don't know what to do in this unfamiliar place. It recalled me once again the first day I came here my college. That was really memorable to me for being the first one who came to registration counter.

The first senior I met was Teddy Tan Kar Hern who will be going to graduate soon. That time, I encountered Chun Chyn who was just beside me. He is now having internship at his hometown, while I am now at KL. I just feel like this year I may not be that crazily happy like last two years. This year, the spotlight may not place on me, I may not be the one that people would seek for consultant. I have been told that responsibility would be higher when you have a higher position in an organization. When the responsibility is getting high, the attention people pay on the person would be high as well. I think I need to accept the fact that I am no longer consequential ever since the moment I let go of my position. It is time for me to learn how to stay low profile, and how to stay humble.

There are many feelings that I sympathize with my friend Kevin who is actually quite in the similar situation with me. I just don't want to mention over right now, because it may take a lot of time and "juice in my brain" to express. LOL! I just realized that there are always many new things you ought to accept and learn in different stages of your life. Back to my place with another kind of awareness, I think it would not be the same for everything, but at least I believe great things are coming soon. We shall see.