Determined

There was a girl telling me that she had a nightmare one day. In her dream, she saw me leaving out of her life. She didn’t tell me the detail and I didn’t ask for that as well. However, she shared with me about how he felt for the dream I was very sorry to be helpless about the insecurity I gave to her that time. At that time, I was wondering if the nightmare would happen to come true at last. I do not believe that the dreams at night will come true. But what happens about us now? We are no longer keeping in touch with each other that often. Nonetheless, our lives still go on ordinarily as usual.

Little by little, I have come to realize that the dream that time wasn’t something like a prophecy. That was not a prophecy predicting the oncoming problem. Instead of that, I choose to believe that was just a phenomenon caused by her worries and the feeling of insecurity. Being worried and insecure caused her to have that kind of nightmare. I am really glad that she was trying to appreciate me, but it was just saddening for the failure of helping her to gain faith. But thank God, I think she has a great life now!

What if I have a nightmare like hers? LOL! A nightmare that seems to tell me that I’m going to fail to secure something previous to me? What am I going to do with that kind of dismaying nightmare? I am actually feeling sick of the attempt to interpret the meaning behind the dream. It is getting me despondent immediately. However, I don’t want to deny..deny that I really scare to fail to secure that. I know that in order to face the insecurity, I need to be honest to myself and admit the fear in me. I am not able to do anything to help for that, because I’m just a human with many limitations.

Sincerely pray for wisdom, courage, faith and patience, because I know that I can collapse anytime without anyone of them. Please help me to be humble, so that I won’t take anything on my shoulders unnecessarily. Please help me to be submissive, so that I won’t walk with my own will but your will. Please help me to be faithful, so that I won’t be diffident and consequently showing my ugly negativity. Amen!!