Back to my place

Going back UM is not something bad to me, because right over here, I am able to enjoy. For instance, I do really enjoy my Sunday worship, and attend the lesson after the worship in order to know more about Christianity. This morning, I saw several new faces. A smart-looking guy and a polite lady started to worship at our church recently. They are just several years elder than me. Somehow our conversation reminded me that I am now a Third year student who is going to graduate 2 years later. I wonder how long I am still able to appreciate this kind of life style over here. I feel sick when I think of leaving this place. It is really sad to think of leaving the place you like, leaving the people you like to get along with.

Oh ya! Today is registration date for all the freshies. They need to register themselves today. Early in the morning, I woke up and waited for a phone call at the resting site at ground floor. Many young guys with their parents holding stuffs moved up the stairs and searched for their own rooms. Some parents looked really happy and proud, as if they are proud of bringing their sons to this University. Some looked confused because they don't know what to do in this unfamiliar place. It recalled me once again the first day I came here my college. That was really memorable to me for being the first one who came to registration counter.

The first senior I met was Teddy Tan Kar Hern who will be going to graduate soon. That time, I encountered Chun Chyn who was just beside me. He is now having internship at his hometown, while I am now at KL. I just feel like this year I may not be that crazily happy like last two years. This year, the spotlight may not place on me, I may not be the one that people would seek for consultant. I have been told that responsibility would be higher when you have a higher position in an organization. When the responsibility is getting high, the attention people pay on the person would be high as well. I think I need to accept the fact that I am no longer consequential ever since the moment I let go of my position. It is time for me to learn how to stay low profile, and how to stay humble.

There are many feelings that I sympathize with my friend Kevin who is actually quite in the similar situation with me. I just don't want to mention over right now, because it may take a lot of time and "juice in my brain" to express. LOL! I just realized that there are always many new things you ought to accept and learn in different stages of your life. Back to my place with another kind of awareness, I think it would not be the same for everything, but at least I believe great things are coming soon. We shall see.