This is the feeling and thought that I had once I reached my territory.
I back to my college prematurely for some funny reasons that I don't want to mention. After the passionate uncle dropped me over there, I realized that no one was going to entertain me but myself. What does it mean? Yupe, originally I'm not supposed to be in UM that early because there is no entrance for outsiders except for the freshies. I think I'm not as strange as the outsider they mentioned but the way they regard me is just opposite of mine. What to do? I'm no longer somebody in the college. If I were somebody to them, all the identities should need to add an 'ex' in front of the names anyway.
Somehow it is saddening that I need to humble myself and ask for help from juniors. I'm the one who giving countless helps last year, but that is no longer the same this year. Since I don't have a certain level of authority anymore, I may not be that helpful right now. At the same time, i'm not able to involve ourselves in certain places, anymore because our time has passed, the juniors should be given chances to learn and they are supposed to take over out place.
Kevin, my best friend who is in my situation sympathized with me greatly. We know that we are no longer consequential in our college, and helpless that we should learn how to be humble and stay low profile from now onward in order to avoid overshadowing somebody else. I thank God that i'm not the only one who felt being isolated slightly . At least I got him as my companion.
It is funny to see that juniors have their own pm names to be called by the freshies while our pm names are no longer worth to be remembered. I saw them calling che jin woody, but no one there know that I'm spidey. It is happy to see that the freshies will not trouble us to help when they are in need, but sad that we don't seem to have the power to help them anymore even if we may want to offer our helping hands to them voluntarily.
Thank God that I have been given the chance to coach them though I know I'm not relaly qualified actually. It is great to get to know them early. But whne coaching, I didn't introduce myself at all in advance, because I think taht they don't have the need to know me. what a stupendous misery it is!! I'm not here to just to sound off like a kid, but to express the deepest helplessness of mine. It is not easy to stay humble~ never mind brother, we learn together gradually!!
humble~~Three four!
Humbleeee~ Humbleeee~~
Now we need to be humble~~~~ x2
It is and honor to have you as a senior Spidey :) Because i am sure there ain't much people out there who are willing to offer their helping hands without asking anything in return. Stay positive! I am sure there are people out there who appreciate every single effort you have did.
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